You are obviously a very intelligent individual, and one who is on the road to enlightenment. You are beginning to recognize that Christianity, like all other religions, is a sham. As Bertrand Russell wrote, all the ‘great’ religions of the world – Buddhism, Hinduism, Christianity, Islam, and Communism – are untrue and harmful. Logically, since they disagree, not more than one of them can be true. With very few exceptions, the religion a man accepts is that of the community in which he lives, which makes it obvious that the influence of environment is what has led him to accept the religion in question. And think of this: there is something a little odd about the ethical valuations of those who think that an omnipotent, omniscient and benevolent Deity, after preparing the ground by many millions of years of lifeless nebulae, would consider Himself adequately rewarded by the final emergence of Hitler, Stalin and nuclear bombs. One would think such a God could have done much better. The stark truth of the matter is this: Look at human history objectively, and you cannot fail to conclude that if there IS a God, he is the most vile of sadists and is therefore worthy only of human scorn and derision, not worship.